I have a justification for that..

One day when I was whiling away my Sunday in ‘Infinity Mall’ (which happens to be one of my favourite places and you know why), I met this girl for the first time.. She began talking..

“ Hey Ravi.. How are you doing?? How is your new job coming up?? “
“ Hey.. Hi Sakshi !! Finally I get to see you.. I am doing fine.. The job is.......” and before I could finish...
“ Ravi.. How could you do this??”
“ Do what??”
“ It seems, you told Roshan to keep away from me.. How mean !! How rude of you to have spoken like this!! “

Oops.. I went numb for an instant.. After all I was slapped right in the face..

Need a recap?? You do folks.. Now, this girl Sakshi happens to be a very close friend of Roshan who is a very dear friend of mine.. So sakshi and I had already spoken once before this day.. But that was just a formal encounter over the phone.. But thanks to Roshan, both of us knew quite a lot about each other..

Coming back to Infinity on that day.. Your very first meeting with a girl you have known for so long (any guy would know what it means to him), and something of this sort happens.. Zindagi ke saare paap ka hisaab aaj hi ke din hona tha kya yaar?? It felt so embarrassing to hear all this from her.. So I could imagine what she must have gone through when Roshan must have have told it to her.. Such a fool of him to have thrown up before her.. Felt like killing him then and there itself (Thank God.. He wasn’t there that day).. But the thing is.. I just love him.. He has always been such a great friend otherwise.. Moreover, I think I know what must have made him to open up like this.. But him having done this, just gave me an insight that its Sakshi whom he rates higher than me.. (Sorry yaar Roshan.. I just cant help being too judgemental after such incidents.. I think I need to work on that.. one more to the resolution list.. :) )

Now.. the kind of a guy I am.. I need to take responsibility for anything I have done.. Here also.. I had to stand by my words.. But this was indeed a difficult situation.. I was hanging from a cliff with virtually no support.. Gathering all the energy inside me, I replied..

“ So you know it all?”
“Yes.. Roshan ne sab bata diya”
“Hmm.. You obviously seem to be hurt.. I think I should own it.. Yup.. I told him that.. But I had told him not to stay away from you but to draw a line.. Maybe both of you got it wrong.. But I think.. I can explain.. I HAVE A JUSTIFICATION FOR THAT ”

All thanks to her to have shown the patience to sit down and listen to me for the next 10 mins.. And her doing this even after knowing what I had done to her, means a lot to me.. Maybe, this was important for her too.. I dint screw up this time.. At the end, I did appreciate her for her patience and excellent understanding.. I knew I had to give my best shot.. Those 10 mins had become more crucial than any such 10 mins of some interview I might have appeared for or some exam I must have taken.. This was so because all my credibility and integrity for myself depended upon how I defended myself this time.. And these things for me, certainly come before a career or the result of some exam..

I don’t remember the exact words I spoke then.. I don’t think I should go into the details either.. But in that little time, I explained to her how it was in her good interests only that I had asked Roshan to refurnish things between both of them.. That was all.. And the kind of persuasive genius I am (I just love praising myself like this once in a while).. It worked well.. She seemed to have comforted.. A smile appeared on her face.. It seemed as if I had made enough sense.. Very nicely she told me that she felt very light.. Actually it was me who had come back to life by then.. I had wanted a piece of land to rest upon after falling from the cliff.. Instead, she had herself pulled me up safely.. So stupid of her indeed..

This was just one of the many incidences where I have given wonderful justifications and have saved my arse each time.. Believe me.. Its an art which one needs to acquire.. Takes a lot of effort, lot of planning, great presence of mind and lot of guts (guts to face the heat if things go wrong).. The skill lies in being polite and showing that you are very patient.. Never leave the battleground may what come.. Be confident.. You should appear as if you are empathising with the situation you have caused.. And finally cover it with a thin slice of emotions.. Here you have with you.. The perfect recipe for a perfect ‘run away’ for anything and everything you do.. Well.. No one can stop you from going places once you have it in you.. Just imagine, what it would be like if you could justify yourself in front your parents for having failed in some exam or justify yourself to your boss why he should be appraising you this time or justify yourself to the girl or boy of your dreams why you are the best choice for him or her.. You will be a man of reason.. Man with a purpose for everything and anything you do.. Sounds great, doesn’t it?

Hold on people.. I didn’t write this to give you tips on how to save yourself from getting kicked.. And I am no fool to have given away my secret armour to you all.. Its certainly not as rosy as it looks to be.. My friends know the number of times I have ditched them on their movie plans or trips or get-togethers.. Everytime that I had tried to justify myself, each one of them complained that my justifications sounded like weak excuses.. I know I have very smart friends.. Needless to say.. I have been thrashed each time I have not shown up (even then, I am still the same.. Sorry guys.. Have got too used to your swear words.. :) )..

I am afraid.. The way things have gone by till date, I must have already been typecasted for my justifications by most of you.. Some might call them excuses.. Some might be even harsher by calling them cheap ‘cover-up’ or ‘made-up’ stories.. But for someone who does not even know how to say a ‘sorry’ (people often complaint asking if I am doing them a favour by saying sorry) or wish somebody a ‘Happy Birthday’ (no one has complained ever, but I myself think I need to be more energetic), how the hell could a justification be so very well drafted out?? Worth giving a thought, right?? Why not think of the ‘justification thing’ like a rational thought that had dawned upon you even before you enacted that wretched deed??

Well.. If this does not justify why I use the art of justification so often, then in that case..

"Sakshi, I am stupid "..